Fiat Lux

Over the past few days I've been mentally composing bits of a typical "the year that was" look back on Scott's and my past year. The usual thing - mention a few personal highlights and low notes, maybe make a few political comments, and close with something upbeat about the coming year. But frankly I just don't feel enthusiastic about pulling it together into a full blog post. It's not the worst year we've been through, but it was far from the year I hoped it would be. And I've already blogged most of the major high and low notes anyway.

2005 will bring a real change - I start my MBA program at USF in the 3rd week of January. It's been more than 15 years since I was last a full-time student, and as the day gets nearer I find that I am more than a little nervous about the whole thing.

I'm not such a mature adult that I don't still have the same kinds of anxieties I had those many years ago when I last started at a new school -- Will I do well? Will people like me? What should I major in? And there are new anxieties I didn't have back in my college days -- Have I made the right decision? Can we really afford for me to be more or less non-income producing for so long? Will I be able to get a better career out of this endeavor, even at my age?

I'm better able to handle anxiety now that I used to be -- I've had a lot of practice at it -- but these are the things that occupy my mind as 2004 rolls to a close. What 2005 will bring I don't know. I'm eager to find out, though.